what to choose!!!!
someone you love the like you have never or do the duty of doing what people who have given us life want??????
i met a guy two years back... dint know when i met him the first time that i will like him and actually love him even after i know i can never be his... he was the first guy i met who liked me for what i am... let me be what i wanted to... no question no fuss... each moment with him is a precious memory... can keep writing about him.... he is a simple guy sometimes angry like he will murder someone and at times so loving and sweet like the best lint... lol... love his eyes as they never lie to me and he hates if i look directly into his eyes as he knows i can read them.... he too loves me and we both never wanted to say as we knew we could not commit to each other and dint want to loose your friendship... but fate had something else and one day in our fit of emotions we confessed it... he is the only guy with whom i have shared things i have not with most of the people in my life... no one has ever made me feel so special... i always knew he had feelings and from two years my family is looking for a guy for me... their is no ways we can be together as my family will not agree... we both know it... my family if free but not in the aspect of wedding... cant do anything wrong also as i lost my dad 4 years back and my any wrong doing will effect my brother... cant do that also as my brother has given up loads for me... everyone, like my family and frenz, has so many expectations from me... life is sometimes hard but what to do... cant stop loving him and wont go against my family... both are important.. one satisfies my heart and the other is my soul and the cause of my well being.... is it wrong if you love someone and marry someone else... wont cheat or back out on my duties on the one i marry but one part of me will always be my sweetheart darling B#####.... he means a lot to me so does my family.... wish i could be his and he could be mine... do not know if i can feel the way i feel for him for anyone else... he says he will love me forever and always be their for me and wont leave me and he is not lying... his eyes tell it... how cant he love me so much....
want him to find someone who can love him like none has ever loved anyone and he finds all the happiness in the world... want him in my life even as a guide,advicer,friend,special someone, a person dear to me.... god give me the strength....
